When I first saw the title " your dreams" my first thought was what I dreamed of last night, but I cannot remember what I dreamed about! Then I realized that maybe this is asking to write my dreams and aspirations sort of deal, so I am gonna kinda go along with that.
When I was in High school everyone assumed that I was going to go to college and only go for Music. At the time I thought that was what I wanted to do with my life only because everyone told me that's what I should do. I do admit that I loved doing what I was doing, singing was my life. But deep down I knew that my life was not supposed to revolve around that. People who knew me really well always said they didn't know what I would end up doing in my life, but that they knew it would involve kids. Whether that was having my own, or getting involved in daycares and such. Deep down.... I just wanted a family. I was the girl who's graduating class laughed and joked saying I would walk down the isle with a wedding dress under my gown. That that time the year after I'd have one on my hip and one on my way.
Now that I have been married for over 2 years I know what my real dreams and aspirations are. They are somewhat the same, but more narrowed down. I want a family. I want to have my life revolve around my kids and my husband. I want to wake up at 3 am to comfort my baby if they are upset. Wake up 5 am with them up and ready to play and start their day as i send daddy off to work. You hear people say you don't really want a baby until you start wanting all of it. By all of it I mean you start wanting to have labor pains. You are ready for it all. Then all that you can do is wait. I wish I knew that starting a family would be this rough, but honestly that/ this would never change anything on my views of wanting it. The harder it is, the more I want it. And I pray every day that God will bless us with children, and I can only pray that it is in His plan for us.
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