I am one of those people who hears a certain song and I can close my eyes and remember a memory exactly and instantly want that to happen again. Smells do the same thing. Mostly fall smells, the leaves and trees, they make me yearn to be back in PA and doing something for Halloween haha. Well most of my nostalgia does have to deal with wanting to be back in PA, since that's the place that I miss the most. I don't know if it's the cooler weather we are having today or what, but I really am just wanting to be back in PA with R and my family sitting in the living room, or going to the mall like we used to. I think you hit a time in your life where you realize your growing up, and you think of the things and the times that made you feel like you aren't. And being back in PA makes me feel that way. Here we have no one to count on except ourselves it seems most of the time. We have a ton going on that no one else besides us knows about because we don't have the family to support us in person. It's amazing how different support in person and over phone changes and how different it feels. I think a wanting for us to be back in PA is also a wanting of support. We have a lot of changes coming alone with the baby, yet alone with the handful of other things that could change our lives in a second that no one else knows about, and to be able to fall back on family and just being able to go to one of their houses and vent and be told advice and given help is something that we just don't have here. I don't know how people do or.. can function without God in their lives to count on, because there are times where you literally have no one else to count on or talk to!
Well on a second note- 26 weeks this week! ( well yesterday) and Little one loves using me as a boxing and kickboxing bag, which makes me sore but I love feeling him/her! We've had a few little scares here and there but everything seems to be going fine now! Little does he/she know mamma and daddy have prepared absolutely nothing so far haha, so we def. have to start working on that soon! I am now getting into the super impatient I want my baby here, but scared to death he/she will come to early. At the same time time is flying, so I'm trying to hold on to each day and being pregnant. I think it's a feeling that I'm really going to miss once little one is here! I'm still amazed God created such an amazing way to pass on life.. it's truly... crazy to love something.. someone so much without ever meeting him/her!
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