So this morning I woke up around 3ish and could not fall back asleep. I've been doing that a lot lately, getting up between 3 and 5 for no reason. Well today had a reason, and pain was involved. I got up to go pee because I was sleepy and thought that that was why i was not feeling well. Well bathroom time over and I crawl back into bed trying to curl into the tightest ball possible. Ripped all the covers off the bed with another " hot flash", and tried not to wake R up. I finally go up and went to the kitchen around 5 ish- taken a few minutes to get there to down some motrin and head up my pad that i usually freeze for my migraines. Crawled back into bed and now... over three hours later am finally feeling some sort of relief.
When I woke up in that pain I started to have a panic attack. The last time I woke up like this my friend took me to the ER where I learned I most likely had a ectopic pregnancy. It's amazing how one feeling can flood you with so many emotions. It was if all of the excited and scared and dread all came back to me at the same time. Did you ever listen to a song that you hadn't heard in years, and you could close your eyes and remember being in your parents house as a kid listening to that song? You can almost smell the weather and imagine the sunlight exactly how it was that day? Or just a whiff of funnel cakes takes you back to your favorite amusement park as a kid, and you suddenly crave to ride a water ride or roller coaster? I think that God has wired us amazingly, truly something no one could possibly amount to conquer or make better. You can list to me all the scientific terms you would like about the brain and how it's wired to do such things, or what part holds memory but it still won't matter to me. God created us like that- I don't need a explanation! And if I want one? I'll wait till I can ask Him :-)
Well hopefully these cramps subside so I can get the cleaning, that I was excited to accomplish last night, done today :-)
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