I'm starting to finally feel like a normal person again despite a few things that are holding me back. I'm pretty much back to my normal routine, that is except when these horrid cramps take over and land me back in bed letting me know that I have NOT been taking it easy. Some people told me that after a miscarriage that you just do your normal stuff and forget about it and move on. I've been doing a little of that but I can't just " forget it" and move on! One thing I think people don't realize is that R and I had been trying for a little over a year and that was our very first official pregnancy. Even though it did not have the perfect outcome we are still very excited to know that yes we can get pregnant! Even though I was only between 4 and 5 weeks along... I was able to experience that much of pregnancy.( aside from all the pain from the cyst at the same time that is lol) Even though we wanted that baby so badly, God knows what's best for everyone and there is a reason for everything. Although I won't lie i do/did get really depressed for a few days.... we are blessed to know we can carry a child no matter the length of how long.
Well aside from all of that I had an awesome day yesterday. I am very blessed to have some wonderful friends for fellow Navy Wives here in VA. My best friend from SC and her husband got stationed up here in VA a few months after we did, and they just had the most adorable little baby boy who is my adorable nephew! I ventured over to Chesapeake to spend some time with them and also another good friend from VA and her adorable little girl came over to spend some time with us. Then later on a neighbor with her little girl came over! So needless to say it was a baby-fest! It was a lot easier and harder than I thought to be with babies after last week. I'm thankful for awesome friends who are there for me through all of it though. I think it was part of a healing process of last week though. V is only 3 weeks old and being able to spend time with him and comforting him made me just thankful for my friends who have children. How even though I may be one of the last to join the mommy force that I have all of these wonderful ladies to have help me whenever it is my time if God decides.
Well I have babbled enough so I shall leave it at that :-)
2 comments:
My heart is so sad for your loss, but I'm so happy to read your positive outlook on everything! I admire your strength and how you take comfort in spending time with other babies. I was afraid it would be awkward or make you feel more sad, but I'm so glad you enjoyed it! We love spending time with you, and we definitely need to work on doing it more often :)
I was really worried about it. And I'm not gonna lie, by the time there were three mommies with babies and I'm just sitting there.. i had a little melt down in the rest room lol. I think it was more of feeling left out and that a week ago i wouldn't have been type of deal, but it def. was a step i needed to take and i think i'm over it now! lol I'm always the one without a baby anyways so it's weird that i can be in the same situation as i was last month and it means something so much different!
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